Ain't No Mountain High Enough
“I feel like I have now truly completed my Positive Futures programme with Venture Trust and with the support of people I have grown to love over this last 18 months.”
Former serviceman Jim Gardiner was a participant in Venture Trust’s Positive Futures programme that provides specialist support to ex-service men and women struggling with the transition to civilian life. Following the programme, Jim also successfully applied for one of several paid traineeships offered by Venture Trust.
But despite how far he had come, Jim felt he had some “unfinished business” to complete as he approached the end of his traineeship. After conquering fear, anxiety and depression as part of his journey with the Positive Futures programme, Jim had one more mountain to conquer.
At 450m high, Ben A’an is a mini mountain with a big view. From the summit you can look down Loch Katrine to the Arrochar Alps. Ben Venue is closer, just across the head of the loch, while Ben Ledi is to the east. South lie the Campsies and to the north are the mountains above Crianlarich. It is one of the best views in Scotland.
“Ben A’an was the hill walk that we were to complete on my Positive Futures course in November 2016,” Jim recalled.
At the time, Jim could only manage to get a short distance up the steep track.
“Despite the encouragement and coaxing, the climb seemed much too hard and I did not complete it. I took part in everything else on the course but there was a sense of disappointment that I had not made it to the top of Ben A’an. Especially when I saw the photographs of those who had made the summit. I swore to myself that I would return one day and try again.”
Three days before Jim’s traineeship finished, he made a bid for the summit of Ben A’an. Jim was joined by fellow Positive Futures participant Mark who was with him when he fell short on that frosty November day 18 months ago. Venture Trust staff who had worked alongside and come to know Jim were also at his side.
“The walk was easy at the start and I had a great catch up session with everyone until the steep parts had to be climbed,” he said. “By then I did not have the breath to talk much. The rest stops became more frequent as my lungs screamed for more air and the sciatica started to hurt.
The whole group were rooting for me and encouraging me every step of the way. With that kind of support, giving up was not on the cards.”
The determination and self-belief Jim has gained in the past 18 months was evident as he pushed through the pain barrier and ignored burning legs. With the few final steps, Jim raised his arms and pumped his fists as the wilderness opened up and spread out before him from the peak of Ben A’an.
“The climb has put me on top of the world after Venture Trust gave me the coaching to get my life back on track,” he said.
“My unfinished business is completed. There was a great feeling of elation and accomplishment. The congratulations lifted me even higher and the view in every direction was stunning, beautiful and inspirational. I played a two verse harmonica version of Flower of Scotland and The Rowan Tree. Just because I felt so good.
“I cannot thank Venture Trust enough for the wonderful turnaround they have given my life.”